
It has been about five weeks since I was a regular smoker - or at least smoking at regular events (wednesday night trivia, Friday nights, saturday nights). I have caved a few times in the last few weeks (my sisters wedding, a horrendous Friday afternoon, a stolen smoke on a Wednesday) but have generally been a good lass and stayed away from the dirty butts.
Today is Friday. Joy of the week, knowing that from 6pm tonight I will have 48 hours to do as I please with no commitments that entail the word work.
But it also means I have 48 hours to deny myself the long enjoyed pleasure of relaxing with a beer and a ciggerette. Even the thought of having a beer on the weekend makes me crave one. I'm not sure its actually the nicotine that I crave, but the experience. I know that when I have my next ciggerette I will hate the first one, but the second one wont be so bad, and by the third one I will have lost my taste buds again anyways.
There is nothing worse than temptation. And the only thing that gets rid of temptation is fulfilling it. Am I to be unfulfilled for the rest of my life? When will this annoying craving for a ciggerette go away? I have beat the habit, except for when it requires a drink with friends (who still smoke)... Can you die from temptation?
Today is Friday. Joy of the week, knowing that from 6pm tonight I will have 48 hours to do as I please with no commitments that entail the word work.
But it also means I have 48 hours to deny myself the long enjoyed pleasure of relaxing with a beer and a ciggerette. Even the thought of having a beer on the weekend makes me crave one. I'm not sure its actually the nicotine that I crave, but the experience. I know that when I have my next ciggerette I will hate the first one, but the second one wont be so bad, and by the third one I will have lost my taste buds again anyways.
There is nothing worse than temptation. And the only thing that gets rid of temptation is fulfilling it. Am I to be unfulfilled for the rest of my life? When will this annoying craving for a ciggerette go away? I have beat the habit, except for when it requires a drink with friends (who still smoke)... Can you die from temptation?