Feeling a Fraud

For the past year and a half I had sat at this same pod and actioned the same tasks day in - day out. I have sucked up the tears, blown out the anger and thrown out mountains of ideas and paper.

This week, for some reason, is different. This week, I have come to the ubiquitous cross road in life, the 'road less travelled' as Robert Frost called it. It is not particularly the road less travelled for me, but rather two options, one confirmed and one hanging in the wind. Two great career options.

But, I feel the fraud. I agree to the confirmed opportunity, knowing that if the other opportunity comes through I'm out of here quicker than Jack the Flash. As the first offer is bread crumbs in a forest... The second is the icing on the cake.

Corporate fraud, we hear that term in relation to stock brokers and business men who try to beat the financial system, and get gaoled. Right now, I feel the term relates to me, as I'm trying to beat the system. And in the process, I hope it doesn't beat me.